Today is totally a DOWN DOWN DOWN day after started of this year.
I found that my EQ totally dint have any improvement since my childhood time, I always and keeps to lost control over myself!
WHY WHY WHY !! Why I need to care about the people who dint care about me ?! Who can tell me why I need to bear the HURT given by the people who are not worth for my CARE? Although I always blame myself for my stupid action after the cases... why I still cant learn from the mistake ? Why I keep doing something make myself SAD?
OH ~~~ I really hope that I can trace back to the college time! I dun wan face so many problem here. Dunno why... at here, after I control myself.. i still become the BAD ppl.. why I always take such character? Because I always care for friendship?? DAMN ! I hate the kindness of me!!!!!!!
Really hope I can solve these ASAP.. if can.. hope it will auto disappear after this. if not.. I think I will break my wall in the eyes again.. the tears wil drop again ..just because of these stupid people! It is really tired ...to do so ..
UNCLES.... please wake up and brush your eyes clearly!! if not.. even you are the highest people.. I also will treat u as a people who OWE me millions !!!!
