累。泪

拼了整个学期，又到了要考试的日子了。 原来，生命真的很短暂，时间过得太快了， 它的脚步， 我， 有心而力不足， 追不上了。。。


前几天， 在一个课业的活动上认识了很多新朋友， 很开心， 原来还有另一班人和我们一样， 很会享受大学的生活^^....谢谢你们的出现， 我。。。。。很开心！！！ 真的非笔墨能形容。。


但， 同时， 我的心又掉落了谷底。 当报告的成绩分数出现在我的眼前时， 我，真地吓了一跳！！我的天， 为什么会酱子。。整个脸可以说是。。。囧


惨了。。是我脑袋出现的字眼~~~~~
终考是， 我得更拼了， 不然， 我那成绩单， 一定。。。无眼“相对”


。。。。。。。。加油了。。。。。。。。。。。。

~ My JouRnEy~

Wow...i already pass three exam paper in my UTAR first semester..

HOORAY!!! this is the first thought flash into my brain when i really finished my paper..

In the past , my result in primary school and secondary school also average marks ...but after the SPM., my life change already .I don know is i "open" my brain already or other reasons. I just found that i won many people along the secondary school journey! This should be my pleasure^^...BUT ,actually i only wan to fight for the scholarship in KTAR. And very lucky , i manage to realize my wish!!!

At KTAR, another war place for me! I need to fight a good result to get in my best UNI with scholarship. I fight ..and i fight again. I still manage to get what i hope , except the sem two in my year one...my result is affected(may be is i quite playful that time). Fortunately, i dint let my parent disappointed. I am still a scholarship holder and i manage to get the BOOK PRIZE!! wow, what a BRAVO move for myself in this war! Really , i feel appreciate for the Prize. Thankful..

 Now at UTAR already , start my another journey ,i still have highest wishes for my this time war. I think it should be the most tough one..because in degree already .Yeah , and i admit ! because the exam paper really a little bit high standard..Still, i need to fight for it !

I have such burden on my shoulder for so many years ..I don't know when i will able to drop it from my body. I don know when i just can leave it . I don't know when i just can keep it away from me.~~~>.<~~~~

Just wait a people to help me, to reduce the burden, to keep the feeling away from me. I want to have what i want. Yeah , waiting ..the only thing i can do for myself.(haha^^ )..

~**kamPAr生活。大学lifE**~

Wow, finally i create my own blog here...feel excited ? erm , my ans is : Little bit...

When i write this blog, i m stay alone in my hostel room, not due to my roommate go back hometown or something else..BUT, is she move out already. So , this is the first time i really own such a BIG room in my life...and i need to take responsible on all the properties in the room.haha^^

Hmm, after i came here, KAMPAR( seniors and friends keep saying as KAMPUNG!)..actually , i m disagree with what they said. Kampar is a beautiful and let people feel peaceful place. Here let me think about my ex hometown,,,Alor Star, which i stayed for 17years since my birth.


I really miss Alor Star a lot a lot a lot!!!!! i miss the people, the food, the environment, the air, the water, the supermarket, , , and many many things that keep flashing in my mind now...
My friends always blame me why i always dint attend the gathering....hehe...just bcos , i have no transport to back there and the time is so pack if i take the bus go back there.So, at here, i just want to tell all my fellow friends : SORRY > THAT IS NOT MY FAULT ...haha

After the college life, i enter the university life. Actually i can choose alternative way to continue my study, but i stil choosing the Uni,,instead of the college(KtaR).My college friends keep persuade me go to KTAR with them, but i reject them for more than one time.

Now, i really step in the UNI road, i start my journey here with my few college friends.At the beginning , all of us also cant adapt ourselves to the uni life, because the college and uni really are TOTALLY DIFFERENT!!! the culture, the management system, the class, the lecturer...etc..

I really headache when start to face many problems at uni..and i feel so regret why the time before i dint choose the college but came to uni. 

At here, gt many secret ...the secret is cant be said .Feel so stress and pressure here. No body to hear me, no people to understand me also..so , for the first few weeks , i dint say out whatever thing which keep in my heart..and keep crying crying crying...
BUT , luckily, still have some of the old friends willing to hear me to "VOMIT"....
if not, i think i really will crazy!!!
BUT,, now , i also found some friends to hear me at kAMPar...
Hey, ALL FRIENDS, i m so appreciate and thankful all of you who willing to lend me your ear.^^

The exam is coming soon.....the final ,,,,i dint start my revision yet.May be some of the friends already study till HOLLAND already, i still makan angin here...haha

LAst few days, one of the senior told us that, at UTAR, the assignment NO CHANCE to get more than 70%....SWT!!!! that mean we put so much effort in the assignment, we will not get back what we should get !!!!!So unfair!!! My mind keep pop out : Why the CEO dint study the equity theory???he dont know the output should balance with the input?then still ask the student to study hard? Who willing to do such a business which is loss and no profit at all??

Haix...i dont know what problems will i face in the future..i just pray that it wont too much that over my limit. I scare i cant withstand the problems already. Although i m grass which is tough , but when no light no water, i think my life also wont last long...

GAMBATEH !!!SMALLGRASS!!!aNd ALL MY FRIENDS^^